Weekend Off – The Climb #932

Saturday 11th September 2021

I made the decision to take this weekend off. I had a really busy week this week and whilst next week won’t be AS busy, it’s still going to be pretty hectic. So, not to burn myself out, I decided that having a proper weekend for a change was in order.

Today was very much focused on Fortnite.

I started playing after C and I were trying to find ways to keep his nephew entertained one weekend and the nephew was hugely into it. We kept it going for some time but after I had to play C’s account when they were feeling rough to ensure they got all the items from the Battle Pass. They eventually dropped out, and now only I play.

And there’s part of me that, given I always end up having a mad rush at the end to complete the battlepass despite good intentions, wonders if I should continue.

Every season I start strong for the first couple of weeks. I do the quests, feel ahead on my level vs what week we are in the season. And then something comes along and I don’t play for a time. And then, before I know it, the end of the season is a month away, then a few weeks then a few days and I scramble to complete quests so that I can get to level 100 and unlock everything in the Battle Pass.

It happens every single time.

Of course, this time my problem was my PC dying. That knocked me out for a couple of months. But I could have played on the laptop if I had wanted. But I didn’t, and despite knowing for the last month when the season ended, I got to this week and realised I had no choice but to complete the battle pass today.

I’m left wondering whether that’s having fun or not. I’m just grateful I didn’t have to do C’s account this time. I seem much more into Minecraft at the moment, and even though I’ve taken a mini-break from Warcraft, at least I do also play that regularly.

I managed to get it done. It took me the entire day in between breaks. But at least it’s done now and I can enjoy the end of season event tomorrow with a clear conscious.

I felt a little guilty not doing any work today. I have videos that need stitching and scripts to plan so that the one video a week routine results in a better quality video. But I really think I needed this break.

The thing I’ve not figured out yet in my own head is whether doing something like this is a reward or a compromise. Part of me feels like I’m tapping out for a weekend because I’m feeling the burn and that if I didn’t NEED to, I shouldn’t take the break. but equally, I feel like this is a reward for having a busy week pumping out two videos a day, plus keeping the writing going. I just wish I could feel like it was a reward all the time.

Next week will be busy again, although I’m hoping to have a bit more time. However, we’ll see whether I need another break next weekend.