Monday 25^th May 2020

I love that I have writer friends who I can text and ask questions about time travel without having to qualify that it’s novel research.

I could use some time travel right now. I really wish I could travel into the future and back again to explore the outcomes of a couple of different choices.

I feel I am at one of those crossroads in life at the moment, where choices I make now could have big implications in the future. Obviously hindsight will tell me which choice I should have made, but I don’t have the benefit of that right now. And so I feel really anxious about making the “right” choice.

To make things even more complicated it’s not one of those A or B type choices. This isn’t a fork in the road, this is a busy interstate with lots of options. Even just standing still for a while to see how things develop is a choice.

It’s been stressing me out all weekend, making me question myself and my motives.

I’ve come to several conclusions

Whatever I choose, I’m never going to know the outcome of the other option. 6 months from now the other option might seem like it was the one I should have taken… but butterfly flaps its wings and all that and I could have been hit by a bus
The right choice is the unselfish option. If my long, thoughtful walks over the weekend have amounted to anything, it’s that patience isn’t always unselfish.
But neither is being rash. Less patience might be the better option, no patience probably isn’t the best.
There are principles that I’ve always used to guide me. When in doubt I should refer back to those.
There’s probably no one right answer.

I understand this is all a bit cryptic but like the choice I eventually make, hindsight will give clarity.