Mystery Stress – The Climb #224

Saturday 2^nd September 2017

I’ve been unable to figure out why but today I have been feeling so unbelievably stressed.
The best way I can describe it is as if someone had turned the stress tap on and I couldn’t stop the flood. What’s weird though, is that I’m unable to conclude what it is that’s causing me to feel like this.
Every little thing has just been feeding into it, and it’s like some perfect storm of stress that seems to be feeding itself.
The fact that I have School of the Sword blog posts to do was causing me stress. The fact I need to tidy the house, despite no pressing need other than it needs a tidy. The fact that things I turned my hand to seemed to turn to crap.
It’s a complete mystery to me what’s causing it. I wondered yesterday if it was the book now being out my hands causing some sort of anxiety attack, but I’ve not really felt anxious, just stressed out about everything.
I’ve wondered if it was something I ate. As weird as this sounds, but I used to find that a lot of salt seemed to make my anxiety spike. I’m not sure whether there’s some scientific reason or it was some unrelated correlation. But even if I do take this as a given, I can’t see anything in my diet that was out the ordinary (other than cake yesterday)
A possible clue is that I’ve been thinking about the day job, which is something I never do outside of working hours. But whilst the last couple of weeks have been hectic, it’s not as if there’s any one thing that’s causing me stress. It’s not like I have a big upcoming project. If anything that was last week and we’re now coming down from it, so it’s a bit of a mystery why this – if indeed it is the day job that’s causing me to feel stressed – is the cause.
I’ve tried to chill out playing World of Warcraft. With the new patch has come ways to get upgraded gear and so I’ve been doing world quests to up my level. I also spent much of my morning farming for an elusive new tailor pattern that’s needed for the new mount quest. I did a bit of farming for it yesterday but I had the wrong mob. I corrected that today and as a result, soon had the pattern.
I farmed enough mats to make two of the item, one for me and one to try and sell. I figured that unless I was quick then everyone would be selling them and the price would plummet. There were quite a few when I put mine on the auction house.
I also did the first stage of the mount quest. I’d hoped that would be enough to take my stress levels down, but as I said, it’s like a stuck tap, and I ended the day just as stressed as I started it.
Perhaps after so many months of work, this is just my body releasing all the pent up stress it’s felt. When I used to do Action-Figure I’d work solidly from Xmas to Easter and would inevitably collapse Easter Weekend with the worst sickness all year. Perhaps the hard work of the last few months is now manifesting itself.
I just hope it passes, as it’s made it impossible to relax. Today was supposed to be a day to chill out and recuperate, and yet I end it feeling every bit as stressed as when I started it. Hopefully the next few days will shed some light on what’s caused it all of a sudden.
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