Thursday 1st February 2018 I went back to work too early. I’ve never been one for being off ill and so I’ll drag myself back to work as soon as possible. But my hand really wasn’t feeling up to a day of use. Over the last day or so I’ve typed a little, I’ve played [...]
Wednesday 31st January 2018 I had intended to go back to work today but my finger was killing me this morning. I think I must have moved around in the night and knocked it. I don’t seem to need to do much for it to really hurt. Just brushing it against something is enough to [...]
Tuesday 30th January 2018 Today I hurt like someone who’d nearly chopped their finger off. Now the shock has worn off. The hand really, really hurts. It’s not just the finger though… just trying to stretch my hand results in pain. So typing hurts it (even if not using the finger), ALT-CTRL-DEL is next to [...]
Monday 29th January 2018 For someone who fights with blades I’m not very good with sharp objects. I had a major injury today and sliced a good chunk of my finger off, nail and all. The day job was really busy this morning. We had a major incident that took a lot of our time [...]
Sunday 21st January 2017 I’m still getting aftershocks following last weekend’s anxiety attack. I was pretty rough going to bed last night and still felt a little anxious this morning. Random things keep setting it off and I’m not sure why. I’d already decided that I would go sparring this morning. It was a long [...]
Saturday 20th January 2018 It’s funny how plans come about. For the last week I’ve been considering some new fitness goals for 2018. In 2015 I felt my fitness was far behind everyone else I swordfight with. I was slow, both in movement and in reaction. 2016 it was about taking my fitness to a [...]
Thursday 18th January 2018 The big trouble with finishing a big project like an edit or a novel is that you suddenly find time on your hands. I liken it to stepping off a travellator or that alien feeling you have when you walk into your house after a holiday. You’ve been working on a [...]
Wednesday 17th January 2018 After feeling calmer yesterday I found myself coming back from training late tonight and having another small panic attack. It was small enough that I could recognise it right away but it’s meant that whilst being in desperate need for sleep, I’ve stayed up late hoping for it to subside. The [...]
Tuesday 16th January 2018 I’m definitely feeling a lot better today. I’ve been feeling a lot calmer and my anxiety has died down a lot. It’s left me feeling exhausted. Having felt like I’ve drunk too many energy drinks the last few days, I now feel like I want to sleep. Given that I’ve not [...]
Monday 15th January 2018 Today is supposed to be Blue Monday, the most depressing day of the year. For me, that’s certainly partly true as my anxiety has been spiking all over the place. It’s been caused by a number of things and has just seemed to have come to a head. However, I took [...]
