Thursday 18th January 2018
The big trouble with finishing a big project like an edit or a novel is that you suddenly find time on your hands.
I liken it to stepping off a travellator or that alien feeling you have when you walk into your house after a holiday. You’ve been working on a project for so long that when it finishes and you don’t need to work on it any more (at least for the time being) it can be a little disconcerting. All that mental energy invested into characters and plots is suddenly freed up.
I never know what to do with myself. I feel like I’ve grown an extra pair of limbs.
Many people say I should jump into another project but just as I can’t start reading a new book the day I finish one, so I can’t just jump into a project. I need time to recharge, to consume rather than create.
It always feels such a lazy process to me, but I know it’s necessary. I need to emerge myself into a game, or watch a Netflix series. I need to surround myself with someone else’s creation so I myself can start to feel creatively energised.
And so, I’ve spent a lot of time this week on the sofa watching TV slowly driving myself mad. It’s different if I have company. There’s someone to interact with, to discuss the events. But sat on my sofa alone it seems such a passive task.
And it is. It’s the resting up after running a marathon.
I have absolutely no idea what my next project is going to be. Other than creating a synopsis for Book 3, it’s pointless starting anything major until I know what’s going on with the Shade Knight books.
And so tonight I found myself dressed in my wookiee onesie watching Star Trek Discovery. I’m not the biggest Star Trek fan but I like that Discovery is taking Trek in a new direction, one where people are greyer and bad decisions are made. It’s certainly fine for binge watching and I’ve now watched the first 9 or 10 episodes.
Of course this was interspersed with discussions with friends over text about TV series and Bitcoin and books but it was a pretty brain dead night.
Given that I was feeling a little wired this morning it was probably needed. I managed to battle it but it feels, for want of a better explanation, that there are aftershocks to my panic attack last week. I think a number of things are feeding into this, not least the day job, which even my boss feels has been tough the last couple of weeks.
Maybe one day, I can finish a draft and have a proper 2 week break where I do nothing but watch TV and play games before jumping into something new. But for now, I have to deal with the stresses of having a day job. I’m just glad all this is happening when everything I need to get done, is done.
I’ll probably chill out for the rest of this month with a view to starting something new in February.
But for now it’s nights in, in front of the TV. I intend to enjoy it.
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